diva dreamz

2004-02-08T10:07:00.000+08:00

yoz ..its been a real long time since i blog..lots of things to do ya ?..study training tornament study training etc...same ol'thing every freaking day argh ~...*sigh*..tired man...pass few days ive been under the rain and sun...this year's weather is kinda weird as awhile is raining like freaking heavy and the next thing u noe its sunny again!!!
maybe that's why i'm so sick right now lor, im oso very dissapointed in myself ..haix
let me tell ya teh netball results...

resultz :
1) 1st game : Woodlands Sec VS Canberra Sec ---> 9-25 (we won!)
2) 2nd game : St Joseph Convent VS Canberra Sec ---> 43-15 (we lost!)
3) 3rd game : Naval Base Sec VS Canberra Sec ---> 3-21 (we won!)
4) 4th game : Evergreen Sec VS Canberra Sec ---> 9-21 (we won!)
5) 5th game : Admiralty Sec VS Canberra Sec ---> (haven play yet this tuesday !)

yea that's all for the results..if we win admiralty we will be 2nd on the table and will be
going in to the 2nd round of the championship ...wahaa..i was so disspointed in myself in the game wid Evergreen Sec ...haix i din put in my best i guess...i scored one goal thats all..not bcoz of that lah but bcoz i was really tooooooooo GAN JIONG until my whole body began to shiver and i din played well..*sigh* maybe i'll do better the next time round..

yesterday i went to the hospital at night..got a really dman high fever that wnt subside
then got and injection and took some freaking blood test that almost made me faint
i have flu and asthma..headache and fever...ive been sneezing out blood..and my throat is so painful ...man i wish i was jux in hospital and on a drip...so i need not suffer that much most prob ppl wud care for me eh ?...haix anyway c u guys sumwhere next week...
buai~

2004-01-23T10:47:00.000+08:00

HaPPY CNY !!!!
hmm...so boring woke up damn early yesterday lor...nothing much really happen yesterday lah ....i took less thn 30 mins to visit my grandaunt house ..then as usual every year will always be at my grandma house lor....so sianx rite ?..but small family better..no need to travel much and best they all live in YISHUN !!! hahahah.....walking distant some more....actually only go to two houses nia lah...that is hw small it is....anyway i really got nothing to do when my uncles and aunties and my bro n mum wanted to play mahjong..(dry swimming)....i was like ..damn so bored my other two black jack uncle not at home all working...sianx no one to gamble with liao...

then my Air Steward uncle ask his gf (air stewardess)..to play for him mahjong ferz then he entertain me and fadhli and his sis (my cousinz)...so played casino style black jack , poker , "in-between" ,clock and alot lah....i only took out fifty cents and i won back $4...wahhahahha.....then when my uncle took over his gf in the mahjong game i called nick and ask him go out lor...i got this feeling hes bored by then....so we went to orchard....then hor wanted to watch movie de leh...damn ...everything full except for PETER PAN !!! wah kao tt kiddy movie....no thnx ba...so we wanted to take neoprint as usual lah...but too bad Heeren only HMV open other then that all closed....so we wanted to go fareast then we saw swensens so go there lor we shared the food coz not that hungry.....fareast oso clsed !!!

anyway i rpomised him long ago that i will be his model...when he gets his cam...
so last resort ..RAFFLES PLACE....wah that place really beautiful to take picz ..only after business hour coz so cool then v lil ppl....then alot alot alot of shots...i was alil paiseh coz ppl was looking at me...hahaha.....thats all lor nothing much lah...but some of the photos i really like so nice leh...(bhb)...i got one kawaii pic of me...another i put in the blog ba...nw i mux go to my grandma hse....

c ya and hope all of you had a great time....muaks

2004-01-15T22:28:00.000+08:00

bididiboob .....
oh hi everyone....
today is a tiring day man...long day of school then later on i had friendly matches against Guangyang and Yishun sec....hmm.. u wud be surprised....WE WON !!!
the B girls won all the 5 matches !! w0ot~of coz i din get to play much lah but im content they let me play with the match against our canberran juniours....we thrash them 9-0...wahhweee...7 shots are made by me and the other two is seri....hahah im so happy ferz tym i played so well....

hmm...miss tay talked to me and told me not to be disheartened if i din get into the team of the twelve main ppl......hmmm...i might be sad but theres always next year...
anyway i have to outshine Halimah then i can get into the team..if not i will b drop out of the team this saturday...so i hope everyone of u will pray for me....
coz i really practiced alot and tried my very best...and some of u shud noe hw badly i want to play this tornament....haix....but miss tay said sumtin which made me feel so happy...she said that if she was the coach she will choose me to be the twelveth player and not halimah coz im much better thn alot of ppl....and she said that she will you yuan zi chi wo....hahah,..

anyway gtg i nid to slp cya !!!

2004-01-14T20:22:00.000+08:00

*CRASH* !@#@$#!$#$.........Boom!!!
yo everyone ..had a hard way dwon here...lolx...haix im sad as usual but i tell school os so stressful...i feel like i can't take it anymore....can i ask u guys a question ??....hmm...if ya have a blog..and its urs...its like ur daily diary where u put most of ur feelings and thoughts in it..so do u think ya have the right to say all u wan???...for my opinion i say DUH ~ I hvae definately have the right coz its my blog and its all mine.....its my side of life...argh...that deborah..she go complain say that i said alot of bad things about her i my blog...but look its my blog and i do wad i like....guess who told her sumone frm that freaking church i USED to go....and u noe wad the people totally suck there....i dun understand why they can call themselves a CHRISTIAN...well..let it be then....

i like it this way and it goes my way i my blog no ones gonna stop me...today i was at the canteen after school as usual with the three of them and so i went to order my food when i was walking back deborah blocked my way i said politely ..."EXcuse Me"...but u noe wad she jux moved alil and that area was like so bloody narrow hw the hell am i supposed to walk ?i din wanan ask a second time coz i noe shes gonna humiliate me...she i jux walked pass and and my bag accidentally hit her lightly but i noe i was wrong as i did not say sorry but u shud noe hatred can make sumone do anything nasty...but she was so exerating....she leaned so much forward like as if pushed her too hard....argh ~...cnt stand it....but its k....

later on when i was walking back home ...i told serena everything even about the bloggie thingy and there was silence for quite awhile...then serena said there's one thing i can do ....TOLERATE..well i said fine i will...but i tried tolerating but got bullied by last year classmates...but im willing to change and this will be the next new year resolution...i will cahnge definately for the better i told Xijun in GB that if i FA PI QI i told her to stop me and scold me...so i will try to controll...i can gamble this coz i have confidence i will change....

anyway i'll type sumore later i guess i better go bathe before i stink my room.....
but listen to all ya people...blog is a personal diary to tell me ppl hw u feel and they have the right to type wad they want and let me tell u this i noe who is that anonymous.....jux dun let me c u......
bye

2004-01-08T22:16:00.000+08:00

yoz...long time no blog muahahha...the connection totally suck man...cnt blog for days...its only the fourth day of school and the ferz week which have not even end...im feeling so stress i cnt think of anything but school....school has been on my mind since day 1 this week...im so stressed up with my pure sciences but it ain't as bad as my A maths !!!...argh ~ i feel like dropping it but my mum says the most encouraging things today...mum: " girl...u can be like your bro if u want to..jux study hard.."..haix...

im so afraid of dissapointing my mum man......oh yar yesterday i got whack by a guy at my hse bball court....haix....fuking idiot...i was playing soccer there ..and he was playing too thn he said to me : " wah can play soccer here ar"..in a sarcastic manner thn i tiao me thn he pushed me thn fight lor...ferz he slap me so hard on my left eye which bcame blurr thn i anyhow punch lar..thn lastly he punch the left part of my head near my ear..and i cuden c clearly then...nw my ear swollen and my head too...argh been having headaches since thn and i even sneezed out blood..omg sure die...

im so in a bad bad mood...bcoz of this freaking bitch frm sec one...shes...er..182cm
tall..damn ! taller thn me so much...and ms tay have been so bias..she keeps giving attention to her so does that freaking coach..then she even ask my besfren serena to teach shooting...yesterday i was waiting for serena so i helped her being her ball picker but ar the tall girl damn lazy dunno hw to take the ball herself mux wait till i go pick even near or far she oso lidat...argh !when serena was jux trying to teach her hw to hold tt fucking ball she gave those dumbass face !!...i was so pissed thn ltr on i was tokin to halini..she was passing by ...that girl threw the ball and it landed straight on my head...aahhhh !!!..worst of all she din even say sorry

today the usual four of us were gng to study in sch...thn we decided to do sum shooting while waiting for jo coz she had bio lessons...damn she was tokin behind our bac...damn hyp !!..nvm ltr on i scolded her man..and it feels gd..uh huh...

ttz all lah tml thn say i nw nid to pack my camp things i got camp tml gd nites...*muakx*

2004-01-01T01:44:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!! hope u guys enjoyed your countdown..well i didn't at all.....only when i was with my bestfriends ..that i enjoyed though its their mundane routine to "suan" me...but i really had fun...yesterday i went KTV and i drank a bottle of tiger beer and three bottles of Venom Vodka...lolx...my friend's bdae.....maybe ttz why i had a splitting headache today when im out with them..........well..we went to Mallenia Walk (dunch noe whther correct spelling)...and walked everywhere ...thn go to orchard and walked...last min b4 we went home....we went to a Fila shop haha actually the four of us wanted to buy same T-shirt but diff colours....too bad Jo and Xijun cnt find the size for the colour tt they wanted...hahahah..so Serena and me bought it ferz....we reserved and two fila tees at habour front ...for Jo and Xijun...so this friday we will be going there lor....

Then it was about 10pm when i reached my house bball court...where my frenz said that our countdown was held there....tot it wud b a New Year ...DAMN !!! my godbro picked a fight on me...argh ~ it was a bad fight....haix shan't go into detail about this fight...brutal ....after that Ziling and me quarreled..argh...good frenz foght at this kind of time...its really sad lor...well i took the initiative to say sorry...after that we really had a good tok and then good frenz again ...w0oT~

nw i cnt sleep sian..anyway i still haven get those x'mas eve picx from xijun so u guys hafta wait ...=) so sorry worx...anyway happy new year and remember to fulfill ya resolutions..and take care....NITEZZZZ'

2003-12-28T00:48:00.000+08:00

hi....as usual..slept probably the whole day...yep...around 5+ i went down to play bball..hey guess wad my fren not long jux broke up wid her bf and now she comes back to our bball court wid a new bf...lolx...mux ask her intro me to her bf's frenz..lolx...
oh yar when i was playing bball ...theres this short and cute boi ...i tot he was sec 2 nex yr...came and ask for me number...lolx...but actually hes two years younger thn me...he really very cute lei...but too young lei.....ahah not interested...

been thinking about this for quite long lei...school's gonna start soon and My 3 buddies are sec 4 nex yr ler....haiz....wonder whether we will lose contact lei....im kinda scared....i noe they wnt come to my blog to read so im saying it here...i dunno hw to tell them ...but this is kinda the ferz time i really really really...treasured friendship...i used to take it for granted but nw im afraid to lose this....
they are so good to me....i dunno hw to express my gratefulness to them as my bestfriends....so most of the time by gifts ..i really want them to noe but...haiz...
i really hope tt this friendship will carry on till the day tt we all die...jux wanna tell them tt thnx alot..for the times u have helped me and for being my bestest friends..
my x'mas wish was to maintain this friendship forever....

maybe same kind of feeling stef has ? lolx...but too bad im a year younger then them..
well....i'll leave it in the hands of god...good nightzzzzzz

2003-12-26T23:12:00.000+08:00

*yawnz* hi everyone....*yawnz*...im so tired i slept jux nw and kinda woke up at 8pm...
tired.tired.tired....and im super bored man...my bestfriends are all in camp...sum leadershp camp...although they were gone for only 2 days its like a weekt o me ....
when i woke up i called Nick...dunno why ...guess its a habit of toking to him...like one day dun call him will die de !!....really dunno y....

i asked him if he cud tok ...but he was gng for dinner so ...hang up and went to lie on my bed again....damn lazy...played afew rounds of gunbound then went to lie down again and now blogging...yesterday i slept the whole day ...eat and sleep repeatedly...
i feel the way Nick toks to me on the fone is a lil cold....but well...it isnt the same anymore .....*yawnz*..oh ya yesterday he talked about his lao po at work...what for tell me...im least interested at it...even if he had a real one ..i wnt really be bothered by it...i think....sumtimes got this jealous feeling ..jux alil lah...but wel...sumtimes i accidentally toks to him about guys...

i try not to coz i noe he will b jealous and so....i tried to keep my mouth shut about those guys at suntec who asked for my number but its like im always telling nick everything except my inner feelings ..hehe....*blushed*...dunch usually tell anyone...
yesterday night i had strange dream...its like i patched up wid nick....but im still not rdy leh im afraid tt i might hurt him if i did in reality...but during those times when im out wid him...or maybe those days we were so close its not the matter of asking the person to stead lor its jux tt i feel we were a couple but ever since he started work...it feels like we 've broken up..lolx
strange feeling...

this is kinda of the fers time i actually tell sumtin i felt from the bottom of my heart ??
haha....anyway tml ive got bball training...at 8am !!!!oh yar i went for a job interview at Delifrance ...i wanted to work during school days to earn extra cash to buy things oh wel...SAD ...it didnt work out well....the manager said i look like a primary sch kid and im too young...lolx....expected tt...my godsis cud work though shes the same age coz she looks much other and she has tt height ..im short and i dunno maybe wad ppl say tt i have a baby face...=(...but oh well...maybe god has it all planned for me...maybe its not the time to work for me yet...study i mux say...n mux concentrate on it...

nitey nightz everybody time for me to orh orh....*yawns*

2003-12-25T01:26:00.000+08:00

HoHoHo Merry Christmas !!! Yo! I'm back from my singles night's out...lolx the usual four of us...Serena,Jo,Xijun and me ...we met up at 4pm at yishun mrt station and headed off to city hall oh god as sual they will always suan me !!! well...im kinda feeling guilty not going out wid sumone but i had my reasons since everyone may think its my fault so be it but my conscience is clear...and i noe wad im doing ...we did alot of eating lolx, i mux say ALOT is really ALOT....ferz we went raffles city then to suntec then marina ...from there we went to the Esplanade....

At the Esplanade ..was so funny man...we opened our prezzies there at the roof terrace...there were so many couples ...eeeee ..lolx actually that made all of us flash back to our past relation....so sad but well...we had a great time together man it was a singles girls night's out !!! we took photos there and probably everywhere we went ...hahahha...and there was afew where we walked to boat quay and sat near sumwheree hahaah i dun remeber tt place but we took pictures by our selves the four of us and it was so funny...before going to Lao Pa Sat ..we went fullerton hotel jux to go toilet ...llolx...

last stop was lao pa sat and we had sting ray and 20 sticks of satay....hahah fun fun fun and we eat n eat ...tears were welling up in our eyes bcoz of the sting ray's samba ....super hot none of us cud tahan.....heheh...we count down at raffles place mrt station wid 2 packets of cripsy m&m lolx...pathetic man...heheh...well...we really had fun ... i think during new year we gonna celebrate hehe.....hmm.. if can i upload those pics...

anyway ive got to go cya and wait !!!.....MeRrY X'mas to ya all....*MUAKS* santa gonna give ya prezzies jux dun b notti k...=)

2003-12-24T00:29:00.000+08:00

Hi...today was another tiring day for me...i was kinda late or maybe very late for school..i was supposed to meet Jo n Xijun at bus stop near school and i was rushing so i decided to take a cab there.. wah lan u cnt belief singaporeans man...damn typical..stealing taxi from ME !!!! i waited for 20mins and every 5 mins there will always be sumone who cuts my queue...DAMN IT !!!

i really feel that today's a very bad day for me.....haiz~next was when we had our friendly match against Yishun Sec...We lost to them very chum....canberranz=14 yishun sec=34 !!! wah kaoz ...the score is abt nearly half ....xia sway...(malu)
i only got to play in the last quarters but still contented as i felt really jealous tt Afena
always got to play...but wad to do ..maybe im short or lousy..atleast got play anyway i got the ball once and attempted to shoot once but failed and my shotting percentage was 0% ...i was really sad man....punishment ..140 push ups..haiz....forgt abt it ba..

i was on the fone wid nick jux now....this few times the way he toks to me is kinda irritated lor...i dunno y...he asked me to say i love nicholas to him...but look i really cnt do it...even if i said it was only for a close real close fren...i really cnt say watcha want Nick ...its not right ...i dun wanna hurt u coz its not wat u wanted... i cnt b wif u
im not rdy at all...when i wan to patc wid u i feel tt sumtinz holding me back...so i guess have to wait but i dun mind if ya find sum one better then me lor...really its k...
i guess by nw ur feelings have faded i dun blame u coz i made u wait but aft so long im still not rdy...haiz~ one thing u said jux now really pierced my heart and it hurts so badly is tt..."i dun feel like going out wid you leh..." if i were to say tt to u wnt u b hurt....i always take things seriously ..i guess i'll take those words dun regret wad u said...coz it cnt b taken back....i asked u on the fone ...dun regret ar...but u were jux fuck care so i guess its good bye....

nites ...sad.....

2003-12-21T22:37:00.000+08:00

Good Evening...or late evening....haiz...~kinda fustrated and sad now...anyway today my cousin Fadhli..asked me out ..and so we went downtown actually supposed to go bugis but then i promised Nick that if i went downtown i shall visit him and i went to Paragon lor...wah weee i saw his new hair style actually not exactly new leh...its ju the colour...nice dye Nick !! Jux in time it was going to be his dinner break lor..so we went to makan at Lucky Plaza..no choice my cousin is a muslim cnt eat non-hala food...aft eating a plate of pathetic chicken rice ..Wee Hong and Jun Hong came and join us...we went to play pool but i now i under age lah but atleast i dun look worst then my cousin though he's three months older then me...

We got the table nearest to the exit lor...so that when tt person come he can run mah...but who noes aft Nick left ..my cousin was playing and we didnt really notice those people and wtf this guy came towards us and ask how old is my couz..ooh man my couz reallly hai ren leh...but nvm lah...hahah i oso kena coz i under age
but atleast we got to play hahah then after all that stuffs , we went to play CS..ahah i think hor i cnt play those kind of exciting games coz i get too gan jiong then i loose control and u noe...hahah but we really did have fun..

when i reached yishun i wen to the bball court to find my captain and we played bball ...haha this guy who is 180cm++ got tapped by ME !!! omg i cnt belief it man...and we won his team...wow...my headaches gone after playing bball...kewl eh ? a new founded medical cure for headaches ...PLAY BBALL !! ahahah

ok i think i gtg ..shower...before i stink my whole house..and go watch my ANIME !!
nites everyone..and my the lord be with ya....

2003-12-20T00:18:00.000+08:00

Elloz everyone !!...i'll make it short as i have to go and sleep coz tml's gonna be a tiring day for me...(duh~ NETBALL!)...My fren from church asked me to go back there for a x'mas event and i went back...before that in the morning i went wid EnQi and Ziling to the saloon near our hse....only Enqi and me went to do hair extension..(kewl)..they din have my hair colour ..i had to ask them to dye for me a darker colour even so did they dye for me but it wasnt dark enuff..oh well thnk god it wasn't wrongly cut away ..heheh(Enqi hair..hehe*secret*)the length was all the way to my waist to i told the aunty hw short i want it to be and it's like 5 cm below my sholuder quite long coz my hair short mah....

the colour of the hair was actually blond i dyed it alil darker but still super light brown !!!!..anyway i gotta figure out hw to hide during sch coz its so obvious....
Enqi had the same colour but diff length..alrite she was sibei SWAY !!! coz hor...the aunty cut the length wrongly ...HAHAAHHA...she really unluncky man...thnk god i did it second...hahah....she was complaining all the way frm the saloon back to my hse and even when we were playing bball...hahah...shes so upset..i bet if it was me i wud b upset too but so FUNNY !!! you should c her reaction man....

Back in church...there were many games and competition ...our region ..(grp D) was doing quite well...im kinda happy there but sumone jux haunts me so i still hestitate to go back to church even when i want to....Deborah's dressing SUCK totally ...trust me....she ain't pretty anyway....her freaking sotong ball eyes.....freak the soul out of me....wah u shud c my EX-cell grp thier dressing was kewl wid all the gadgets and stuff like the MATRIX !!! we won best g12 and best dress region !! happy for them though i din take part...and one more thing when my frenz asked me to come on sunday for CHristmas Rox..i felt so SAD....coz im supposed to be on stage singing due to my family probz and tt person who haunts me....i din go to church for quite some time and i was cancelled off frm the team...so sucky ..but i guess its a blessing in disguise (hopefully)

niway...good nites guys and gals....me gtg catch my BEAUtIFUL sleep if not like panda liao....k nite nite and GOd bless ya all.....

2003-12-19T00:24:00.000+08:00

Heya...yesterdays netball training was so farnie and kinda pissed me off too..when we were doing a drill...Seri rammed the ball in my face anyway you cnt blame her it wasn't on purpose...thn i wasn't crying the tears in my eyes came rolling dwn by themselves..coz its was freaking painful...(dun larf)then of coz my besfren Serena..tricked me !!!! she said .."Hey kim...ur nose is dropping !!"..and i cuden belief tt i actually believed her..i held my nose and everyone larfed at me..so EMBARASSING !! anway ive gotten used to such embarassment...they always tease me...=(

today is like i finally found out why em asked me whether i had quarrel wid Stef...coz i haven been in stef's blog for quite some time...so i dun really noe wads going on...so today i went there and to my horror i found out tt this FAG din only spam in Nick's and my blog but in stef's !!! and watsmore tt FAg used my nickname to scold stef...WTH...so i told Nick about it and he tok to Stef..so our misunderstanding is cleared...and im thankful about tt ...no more misunderstanding between us...SCARY !!all i want 2 tell this FAG spammer tt..."U JUX SUCK...PRAY TO GOD TT U DUN MEET ME OR YOU WILL DEFINATELY GET IT FROM ME !!!"

in the afternoon i was so bored..so i decided to go and play bball...its been a long time since i touched it...i was really terrible at court today....out of ten balls i shot 2 in...wth...i cnt believe it...but its k ...im getting back on track...and tml i'll be going for a hair extention ...my bball fren EnQi..told me tt i cud go and do...its quite cheap lah...so tml the both of us will b doin it...im keeping a tail...i want it to b pink but hahah...my besfren Jo say ..PINK SUX ...=(.....

its getting late alrite so that's all for today lor...nite nite

2003-12-16T22:00:00.000+08:00

yozz....jux came back from a day of shopping which almost killed my brain cells...ahhh...so difficult to choose X'mas presents for people kinda pissed when i can't find anything they like....finally i bought something for my brother's girlfriend and Jo...nw i mux think of wad to buy for Serena....haiz...so FAN !!!

yesterday night i was on the fone with Nick ...and its like i dun wads wrong wid me or wad lah...but this few times i hate to hear people saying vulgarities ...i think today for the whole day i din say a word of it...surprisingly im happy to kick this habit...okay lets get back to last night's event...then he was like Fuck this Fuck that and Fuking sumtin...im kinda like ..dunno lah jux feel its not good..then i wanted to correct him and told him...dun say it liao not good leh.....his reply was in chinese.."yao ni guan meh?"...i was like super pissed and told him i din wanna tok to him...argh~..no wonder the chinese saying ...hao ren mei hao bao~so true

Then when i was in the MRT on my way home ...i recieved a SMS from him ..its said .."Hey Kok wait for me..we go makan..i will be bringing along BiFen and Shiela....."so i was like ok ...wrong msg ...then he sent another .."sorry sent wrongly"...i was thinking of wad he sent to me "wrongly" and wad he wrote in his Blog....i dunno whether his trying to make me jealous which i doubt it did...or really wrong msg but anyway he already said..."yao ni guan..." so i think all his things ain't my prob anymore ....to think he said tt hurtful thing to me....well...life still goes on.....

Dunch worry i won't bare hatred all my life..i forgive MOST ppl that i really got pissed off but some i still nid to think....i feel so hurt by sum of them..their words jux hurt me so badly tt i can't forget...anyway..take care ya all...*wink*....

2003-12-14T00:47:00.000+08:00

heya guys...today was a peaceful day for me ..maybe only when xijun was around with me ...this morning i woke up early to go to the mrt station to fetch xijun as that tall skinny(=X)girl was coming to my house ...you must be thinking wadever for rite ?...CHIONG GB ..haah lame...but its the fact...she came my hse and we watch Asagiri_no_miko (anime) then played gb...had lunch and played sumore and continue watching the anime...time had pass so fast..it was time for dinner but she din stay for dinner coz her mother had cooked at home..she was supposed to stay at my hse overnight due to sum "problems" which i cant say...she decided to come some other time...reason= CHIONG GB...haha

when i got home from dinner..i went straight to my com and played GB as i noe xijun wud be playing too...then when she left there was this guy who msg me in gb ...he really pissed me off the night before and i really dun feel like tokin to him ...since last night he had been begging for my forgiveness...but i jux cnt do it...haiz...i was kinda pissed but ltr on jux ignored him..as i have been taking things seriously and jux a sorry cuden cure wad he hurt me....anyway tot of having dinner with nick but he had OT he said he cud zhao but i think its better to work lah sum other time oso can go out de hor nick ?...

Life ...this few days had been torturing to me....not to boast bt there are quite a number of guys been "chasing" me ...and i like dun wanna stead with anyone of them yet...i really dun wads got into me...but maybe im jux not rdy at all...STUDIES FERZ...ive been doing my weights at home..and dun intend to go gym this few days coz i think i hurt my back...but anyhow i got to run now....cya tml...sorry for not being too detail coz sum things i nid to keep to myself and not say it out...but one thing i can say today about myself...

Feeling:
gasping for air.....can't breathe..i feel like im sinking to the bottom of the ocean bed
and trying so hard to go back to the surface
but no avail ...now death is coming my way but im trying hard to escape ...i feel so trapped and lost...my mind
is like in a whirlwind..can stop going in circles.....

2003-12-11T00:11:00.000+08:00

hi...jux came back from gym...today i had a great time well....maybe jux alil...lolx..i woke kinda late today around 12+ then of coz ferz thing i did was ON MY COM !!! ..tt is definately ferz ..went to play GB and my godsis (rose) called me and asked me to watch a movie wid her...i went 2 watch two movies today...ferz was "Loony Toonz Back In Action" kinda funny...thn we watched "Brother Bear"..it was an extremely nice movie ..so touching...

After that i went to the Gym to train my MUSCLES ...coz the netballers keep calling me "weakass"....so i have to buck up and show them im not that WEAK...lolx...MY muscles are steady pom pi pi.....muahahaah...then i din have enuf $$ to go back home so i had to walk home lor....sianx so quiet and cold....but peaceful...though u think im happy but im freaking confused ...haiz i have mix feelings... when im like wan to find a companion ...theres like no one want me..then when i feel like being single theer comes a bunch of guys ..kaoz i dun wanna stead with anyone coz i dun wanna hurt them...now im caught in the middle...haiz....

2003-12-10T02:19:00.000+08:00

yoz i had a great time at KL...so kewl sia !!! it was like 5 years back when i was in primary 3 i went to KL too and guess wad i stayed in the same hotel and smae level !!! wah so coincidence...anyway its the ferz time tt when im out of singapore i went shopping with my distant cousin (cousin's cousin) shopping without ADULTS !!yay ! im all grown up...*sheepish look *..sorry din update yeaterday coz i ws like freaking bz packing my things and deciding which clothe shud i give to...i bought a ripcurl T shirt , ripcurl sleeveless T (2) ,adidas shoe,a sleevless T and a red adidas Tshirt for my lovely bro,a FILA T shirt (definately for my lesbo..serena)..lolx,a ABERCOMBIE & FITCH Tshirt, a box of BUBBLE GUM (oops hope i dun get caught)...i guess ttz all..hey ya all noe wad ...i went to TIME SQUARE (shopping centre in KL)..and this shopping centre is super duper kewl !! they had an indoor amusement park !! and a triple timed 360 turn wahooo...i was like forced to sit on tat scary ride...i was like praying for my safety as i so those tall poles shacking as if they were going to fall..i was forced by my distant cousin SARAH CHIN ..lolx..he dad n tutor was wid us so jux as our turn was abt to arrive ..this train came and i saw this woman like hiding her head...and her husband beside her was like larfing happily but lil did everyone noe ...she FAINTED ...LMAO!!!ahahahah so funny*guilty?*..i was like OMG wad if tt hapens to me..anyway i cuden turn back so i went on....but it wasnt scary but extremely fun ...aft the ride i felt like puking n had a headache..i paid 20 rm ($s 10) jux for one stupid ride hahahaha waste money nia....hmm..if i can get sum pic frm SARAH CHIn thn i will upload ...=D k gtg bye nites..no i mean morning...yay

2003-12-04T23:10:00.000+08:00

elloz...im back from a freaking tiring day....netball was like hell ..F**k the coach man !!!
i hate that b!tch...wah kaoz make everyone do nearly 300 push ups..and some stupid things lah...tmd !! im dead tired ..haiz...wah miracle..my dad came home !! im so happy.. anyway jux to tell u guys i wnt b updating my blog for abt 4 days or so...coz i'll b in KL tml morning...hmm..c wad i can get for u guys !!=D but im kinda miss my netball training...im oso afariad i wnt b able to get into the team...but im really trying my best ler and if im not on the team ...i'll probably cry my eyes out ...=( anyway take care ive gtg pack

2003-12-03T22:37:00.000+08:00

yoz..everyone !! sorry my blog very plain..but nice rite !!! lolx so bhb ...well today was a backaching day for me...went to bugis with xijun and joanna...(lesbos =X) we were at bugis shopping for my x'mas prezzie !! but they got kinda fed up with me coz i din wan to choose any but they got angry and threaten to beat me ..i finally gave in and let them buy me prezzies...so xijun bought me a cutie bear with a pink knitted shirt on it and joanna bought me two books of my fav comic which is LOVE HINA..hey its not Hentai ok....=D...then when i got back to yishun i went to my neighbourhood basketball court to play with my friends and we challenge three guys to a match of 3 vs 3...they LOST !!! kewl eh...gals rule !!..then they to run ten rounds around the bball court..while we were resting and at the same time watching people play ..there was an atomic bomb which hit my HEAD...(bball lah)..damn it so painful...argh~ got knock on my bonky..haiz~ anyway ttz all lor

2003-12-03T03:39:00.000+08:00

hiya everyone !! i jux started this blog..hmm...at 3:39am ...a lil' crazy eh ?...but cnt sleep ..anyway thnx nick for helping out this late ..lolx